i
can't
afford
my
life.

yesterday my spirit was as broke as my bank account.
but im gonna keep pushing, im gonna reach that goal.

massachusettes i love you, wait for me?

:)

august.13.2008

it was a life changing
crossword puzzle.

new beginnings:

how did it go this long and i didnt know?

we never went this long without talking and then you're gone.

i knew youd go out like a rockstar.

you took the headlines by storm.

i love you, bp.

its that time again.
time to desecrate my body some'more...
thankfully, i dont have the money to,
[nor if i did would i be selfish enough to]
spend it on something like that.

someones birthday is coming up soon!
and that same someone, i miss very much.
shhh.

beth and ava are here!
she's beautiful. both of 'em.
isaac is such a good daddy.
bethany is such a good mama.
i wish they were closer.
our wishes don't exactly work parallel with gods will, now do they?

i am a mother. i am a pretty face with a pretty smile. i am naive. i am street smart. i am beautiful. i am ugly. i am loved. i am sensitive. i am a guy. i am emotional. i am happy. i am hungry. i am content. i am overprotective. i am mediocre. i am crazy. i am affectionate. i am funny. i am positive. i am realistic. i am employed. i am a homeowner. i am independent. i am relaxed. i am concerned. i am overwelmed. i am pushing new limits. i am compassionate. i am sane again. i am eager. i am indecisive. i am picky. i am a cousin. i am a daughter. i am a dog lover. i am loud. i am hyper. i am outgoing. i am shy. i am conservative. i am meek. i am contagious. i am outspoken. i am forward. i am a happy.