i have been blessed so much to have
a mother and a grandmother that are
2 of the strongest christian women
i know and my church knows at my disposal
im learning to not take offense
and learning to be a lady

peyton is beyond everything else, the most precious gem in my life.

just keep throwing bricks on that wall
im not going to talk about it
because you don't care to hear.

i am so blessed
(and i have been for
so long, but my eyes and heart
just didnt' appreciate it much
until just recently)

i am where i am and i love it

my eyes are so open now
and i see everything in flourescent
its a beautiful world
and im finally learning to appreciate
every bad thing thats happened
that put me where i am.

its taken every muscle in my body
to NOT call someone and express
my disdain for him and the predicament
im in.
thank you, god for showing my control
in that department if not anything else
today.

when will my heart and head
be on the same page?

intrigue

that's the word im looking for

i love my circumstances.
the good, bad and ugly.
living by faith, hope, and love.
the most terrifyingly comfortable feeling
in the world.

he did it again.
i don't know how he does it
but he did it again and
im grateful for all
of his blessings
my teeth to push
through my lips and create
a smile thats disproportionate
to my face
its an incredible feeling